Being exposed in lingerie with my real name for everyone to see me as a sissy

Though I know as a sissy I should be exposed, I fear the possible humiliation I may face by  people who know me as Jeffrey Rossman as they learn I not only shave my legs, put on nail polish and dress as a girl in lingerie, or in panties, pantyhose, bras, skirts and heels but that I also like looking at naked men and watching as they get hard.  I always kept my secret from those who know me. No one was to know my feminine side or that I have been intimate with men. To be honest I have kissed men and I really enjoyed feeling a man`s hardness pressing against me and then I would  become even more excited taking down his pants and feeling his erect penis pointed at me.  There is something to be said for taking a man`s penis in your mouth, sucking it, and feeling it throbbing just before he cums.  But it`s just nice being able to let a man know how much a man he really is and letting him know much a sissy I really am.  I now always wear panties and keep my legs shaved soft and smooth and no one knows this. If you want to repost my picture over the internet to more fully expose me, please do so. I admit I am a sissy. Now people who know me, particularly family and friends, will learn the secret I`ve always kept hidden from them. And I have no idea how I will respond if ever I am confronted by someone I may know who may decide to tell others that I`m really a sissy.  Still, I can`t deny I love feeling feminine and shaving my legs, wearing panties, pantyhose, my bras, skirts and high heels and I LOVE to be with a naked man seeing him getting hard and having me on my knees for him knowing what I will be doing for him….